Friday, January 06, 2006

Perhaps u'll never be able to let things go or forget what happened. granted, we're human, imperfect and full of flaws... but are u going to let it affect the future, watch it tear us down, destroy everything that may be beautiful?

there is a reason for every choice. your choice of letting me go, the choice of u wanting me back.
i never wanted to go but i had to.
but when i truly left, i was truly wanted.
then there is a choice of turning back.
what's the reason for this choice?
bcos i want to be with u like i always did.
i never gave up on us, but u did once.
can it be said that it's all my wrongdoings then that things happened?
i believe we both have faults, but what's the point of digging everything up all over again?
shouldn't it be time, finally, that we move on and try to make thing work out?
i finally understood that love is never enough to make us work out.
so what will? God.

u always said communication was a problem, but since there is a change did things get better? no.
i was told that trust is the most important factor in any relationship, it should be there before it even started, but it wasn't here. was it?
depressing words, unencouraging phrase, useless sentences... what's the point?
yes, we are both guilty. i'm sorry. i'll change. will u too?
is questioning a very loving thing to do? don't u have friends who are girls too? are they all evil or bad? haven't u been acting decently in their company? am i not capable of that as well?
so what if i'm a civilian? haven't u hated civilian life once too?

if it truly was a new beginning, there would be a significant change.
but it scares me how it's regressing, upsets me, stresses me, drives me crazy.
do u feel this way too?
is it really time to do something more?

a relationship should be a joyous one, partners to encourage each other.
why do i feel so put down by everything i do? even going out with mummy can cause u doubts?
i may not be perfect, but so are u.

only hoping for a better year, do u think it will happen for me at all?
this night i pray, that u'll finally understand how i feel if u haven't been paying attention...

good night.
i wish u knew how envious i am of your sufficient sleep.
i wish u knew how much i pray for where you wanna be.
i wish u realise i want to be there to support u in everything u do.
i wish u would still tell me u enjoy serving alongside with me.
i wish...

Posted by [DoNuT]® at 12:04 AM